Today

Well today is my 27th birthday. It has been quite a good day.
As it comes to a close and I reflect on my life I have to say I am certainly blessed!
I have family and friends who love me, and a God, who loves me totally unconditionally.
I got a phone call this morning and the message I got was so uplifting to me and encouraging. Thanks Mom #2. And to my sister (from mom #2), who’s birthday is also today, you beat me to the call but yes, I am 27, and thanks for that call too. And to all who wished me a Happy Birthday, I love you all, I love you even if you didn’t say anything to me.
A week ago, After I wrote my last blog a lot has happened. The time at Firestarters was awesome. All those people were so warm and inviting. Even the meeting the night before was great. I love the presence of God! While at Firestarters, at the end was time for prayer, I could feel such a strong prompting to get prayer, so I did.
I had been suffering from depression pretty much my whole life. It was just a way of life and acting. The depressed musician, yea. I had gotten so sick of it. And after such a crazy year, and how messed up “that girl” made my life, I really needed to be set free.
So I got prayer from some people and I could feel a change that night. On the long way home I was happy. Yes. Happy for multiple reasons, mainly because of what God had done that night. Jesus set me free! I still am that way. I smile and laugh for no apparent reason, I think that might be joy creeping in. I guess I just love Jesus.
I’ve heard happy news over the weekend and such, that gives me hope.
I guess when you strip everything away. Take the money, take the stuff, even all my clothes and junk, there is something that cannot be taken. Faith, and hope.
Even if I were to die, I will go to a better place. I would die for Jesus. A martyr.
I’m not going to do something foolish, but in the process of evangelizing, or any other ministry stuff death is always one of those things that can happen. Look at acts, and read Foxes book of Martyrs. I don’t have a death wish, and I would like to live a long life serving God. But I want to do whatever He calls me to.
Anyway, I am no longer depressed.
I’m trying to build a small recording studio in my room.
Work has been fine.
If I’ve never told you I love you, I do love you. If you have been an enemy, or I don’t even know you. I still love you.
God Loves you, Jesus Loves you, but Repent and give your lives to Jesus. God is a God of Love, but also of Justice. If you have broken any of the Law (think 10 commandments), you are guilty and will go to Hell. God is just, and He judges rightly.
There is none that can call themselves a good person. All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. Jesus IS the only way. It’s a heart change, not some religious ceremony, not some contrived prayer you say and that’s it. It’s about a convicted conscience, the knowledge that you’ve done something wrong. Turn your lives to Jesus! I heard an excellent way to describe this and more, but that is to come later.